John,
If you are reading this then I can only assume that you care about your family and I.  I don’t pretend to understand why you did this especially since no one can say this is within your nature.  That being said, please find a way to contact someone if only to let them know you are alive.  Your family and I are extremely worried and frankly not knowing is killing both your mother and I.  I don’t care what you have done in the past; I can only surmise that something has happened to make things go terribly wrong for you.  We know that your phones were turned off less than 5 miles from your house so you must have wanted to contact someone.  John Feltovic, we love you, especially your mother no matter what you may or may not have done.  Are you honestly willing to live the rest of your life without at least contacting your mother?  Is 20 years celebrated in Las Vegas easily forgotten? We are not here to judge, we are willing to listen to whatever you want to tell us.  I post these pictures below to remind you what you leave behind.